I love it when i get stuck in God’s Word. I’ve been stuck in so many other situations, but this is one I want to abide in, it’s what I live for these days.
It’s what happened today as I opened up 1 Samuel. At the beginning of this story a sweet woman by the name of Hannah is in a state of depression. It’s how I see it anyway. She cannot have children of her own, but not only that, she has a MEAN GIRL in her face all day everyday. Her husband's other wife. Peninnah. The word even states that she is called her rival. Y’all, this girl TORMENTS and TORTURES her by constantly bringing this fact to her attention.
6 But her rival wife taunted her cruelly, rubbing it in and never letting her forget that God had not given her children. 7 This went on year after year. Every time she went to the sanctuary of God she could expect to be taunted. Hannah was reduced to tears and had no appetite.
1 Samuel 1:6-7 | MSG
Hold the phone!!! That’s some serious stuff y’all! Girl seriously doesn’t want to eat!
Coming from a girl who TURNS TO FOOD and not away from it during emotional times, I have a feeling my friend Hannah was much the same. But this was different. This emotion she was feeling made her desperate for solitude. For nothingness. For no appetite.
You see,Hannah was so sad INTERNALLY that her body was affected EXTERNALLY. This is deep devastation that we’re talking about here. And honestly, that’s happened to me too. My thoughts tell me you have too. That my sisters have also been to that place of desperation. Where you have been so upset by something that you couldn’t sleep, or eat or enjoy things in this life that would, any other day, put a smile on your face.
I remember when my husband and I were trying to decide if marriage or divorce were the route for our family. My secrets were just exposed, what seems like a lifetime of infidelity, a marriage built on lies. My mom took the kids so we could talk things through. There was much fighting, yelling, crying, praying. They were gone for 4 days and the entire time not one morsel of food passed my lips. I never had a hunger pang or even the faintest hint of interest in food. Just didn’t want to eat. Anything. For 4 days.
So, I get it.
But then Hannah prays – no, she begs for her deepest desire. A child. She cries out in such desperation that the priest thinks she is drunk, but Hannah explains that she isn’t, just desperate for an answer from God.
But here’s where my eyes were opened.
18 “Think well of me—and pray for me!” she said, and went her way. Then she ate heartily, her face radiant.
1 Samuel 1:18 | MSG
She was no longer sad.
God gave Hannah her appetite back. He gave her a zest for living even though her circumstances did
Amazing what pouring your heart out to God can accomplish. Even before there is a sure answer.
Yes, even before there is a change in the situation.
There are still days that I lose my appetite. I’m sure you do too. If so, listen up girl! If you’ve lost your appetite for life and love and joy, if you’re exhausted and depressed and feel weak and have no interest in the things that used to interest you most, learn from Hannah. She will teach you how to enjoy life again.
With only words uttered to God and a heart that believes He has heard and, in His own timing, will
respond , there is so much power – enough power to give you your appetite back RIGHT AT THAT VERY MOMENT.
This might be the greatest gift that I CAN GIVE TO YOU MY SISTERS, encouraging you to pray. Then have faith, because prayer has the power to change us even before we see any direct change in our circumstances.
When we truly give our cares away to God, there should be a lightening in the load we carry that allows us to get up and go on with life. That enables us to eat when our unsettled stomachs could hold nothing down the day before. To release us from the weight of sadness that often paralyzes us from doing and being what He has called us to do and be.
It’s the power of prayer – to change a life from the inside out, even before anything we’re facing has even started to shift.
Pour your heart out to God with anything you are facing.
I’m so grateful HE gave me my appetite back. He will for you too, Girl. He’s that’s big.
Sharing from the heart because I don't want you to feel alone.
Me too, Girl